Yes, my soul, find rest in God; my hope comes from Him
That was the message that was coming through loud and clear as I took the time to actually evaluate my current situation. I had just left work and was sitting in a fully stopped line of traffic attempting to merge onto the freeway. It is not uncommon in my life as a single working mother to transition quickly from one thing to another and on this particular day I was heading from work to school when the lights began to flash behind me. I hadn’t even been moving so I was certain that those light must have been a warning for me to move out of his way so he could pull over the real culprit, those thoughts were quickly redirected when he began to motion for ME to pull over.
Me? I’m a rule follower how could he be pulling me over I knew I hadn’t done anything wrong I wasn’t even moving. As the officer approached my car I remembered that in my mad rush to get my house ready to be moved I had set my current insurance on my kitchen table with every intention of placing it in my car.
License, proof of insurance and registration please
“I don’t have it with me, I’m sorry. I actually left it on my kitchen table.”
Did I do something wrong?”
Now I know that at this moment he believed that I was lying to him as I’m sure he is lied to often. I am certain that when he answered my “did I do something wrong” question that he also believed I was lying when I appeared shocked at his disclosure, but God used that moment to speak a very important truth into my heart.
Officer #49 stated the following “your plates have been expired since April”
Now, I didn’t think he was lying to me I just knew that there had to be some mistake, I’d never drive for 3 months on expired plates. Surely there was a mix up at The Secretary of State the day I renewed my plates or maybe I had forgotten to put my new sticker on my plate. A list of excuses flooded my thoughts as I waited for him to return to my car, never once did I even entertain the thought of it being my fault. That I had in fact forgotten to renew my plates.
Through guidance on God’s part, I quickly realized that God had been preparing me for a message the past few weeks, maybe even months that I hadn’t quite received. The message was now clear as I realized that I am the only one to blame for this mix-up. There hadn’t been a faulty computer system, the officer’s computer hadn’t reported back false information and I hadn’t simply forgotten to put the new sticker on my plate. No, I had actually in all the crazy busyness of my brain forgotten to renew my license plate.
God’s message to slow down was now crystal clear to me. I take time every day to read my bible, pray and spend time in His presence. I even walk around looking for signs and wonders that display His fingerprints on everything I see. I thank Him for the trials in my life and I thank Him for the blessings. I find time to fill up so I can pour out on to others but God was asking me for more. He didn’t want the schedule I had set and penciled Him into, He wanted me to stop long enough to hear that still small voice that speaks to the depth of who I really am. God needed me to see that busyness is a sneaky tool the enemy uses to throw us off course and push us just outside of the will of God.
As I sat by the lake on Saturday morning admiring the amazing handiwork of God he spoke a truth to my heart that opened up a whole new perspective for me.
He has tucked many blessings in the moments we will live out today but when we rush through the day waiting for the next weekend, waiting to meet our mate, waiting until we graduate, have our dream job, become parents, or even become better parents, we miss what is laid out right in front of us. We have no promise of tomorrow, yet so many of us are living as if we have a million tomorrows.
My prayer is that God would fully open our eyes to see Him in everything. That we would take the time to stop and marvel at his masterpiece. That we would thank Him for where he has us today and if that is a hard place for you, that we could thank him for the blessings and gifts that will come from that hard place. We are not on this journey alone but often times we push aside the only one that can get us through it. Father, give us ears to hear you, eyes to see you and hearts that desire more of you. Guide us into a place of rest that only you can give us, quench our hearts of the thirst for more by filling our souls with your living water. Send the Holy Spirit to minister to each of us in ways we could never deny. And father, please forgive us for the busyness of life that places a wedge between our ability to have a relationship with you. Thy will be done!
The weight of all my responsibilities often sits heavy on my mind and heart. I make a list of all that needs to be accomplished when all the while my soul is longing for peace, simplicity and less. Father, create in me a desire for more of you and less of me. Help me hand over all that I am and all that I’m not. May I lay it down at the foot of the cross where I know you can and will pick it up. You then return it to me fresh, light and polished up with all your grace and mercy.